Spent the whole day out again. Fortunately, I was not alone. Guys, no worries. I do not go out alone as often as before. The following shall be how I spent my day as much as I can remember...

1. Lunch at Yoshinoya

2. Watching of Alice in Wonderland (in 3D)

3D movies are pretty cool in terms of graphics. It feels a bit different. There seemed to be 2 layers distinctly between the foreground and the background of the scenes. However, sad that I couldn't see the link in the story. It seemed...very choppy. Like one moment this is happening and another moment, another activity is happening.

3. Walking around CBD

Oh boy, spending a few days rotting at home really deteriorated my memory of my map around Singapore. I couldn't even recognise my way in Cityhall when I was walking around. My sense of directions became much more blunt than I imagined. I suppose this shows that I need to travel around constantly. I need my photo memory back desperately!

4. 'Dinner' at Subway

Got lost while walking in the CBD, but found a few places which I rarely went in the past. We ended up in Chinatown..OMG. But then, took the MRT back to Dhoby to eat and talk.

Oh well, that's the brief outline for the day. Shall get down to my thoughts that came to me. Sorry guys if I'm being egocentric again.

I think that I'm lost. Not just literally today at CBD, but I realised I seemed to lose all of my goals. I can no longer be sure of what I want. All the drive and motivation I had seemed to be gone. Recently, I'm feeling that I'm being drained. Although the holidays is supposed to allow us to charge up and prepare for our next semester, the feeling of losing what I wanted to be seemed awful and scary. Lying on bed at home thinking of what I really want and what I should do to achieve them is bringing me nowhere. Absolutely nowhere.

Also, I have been beating about the same bush about my family. Being long winded again huh. But yea, this is always a matter that has been in my mind for a very, very long time. Pity those close friends who have been hearing my nags about my family, didn't mean to do that. But just that I have a tendency to say out everything I think so as I can picture all the choices and consequences visually in my mind. Shall not go too deep into it here. Or I should say, it should be more practical for me to come up with a solution rather than grumbling and being dissatisfied with things that I should be cherishing at the moment.

In addition, all the thinking is killing my appetite intensively. I find myself eating lesser and lesser when it is the holidays! Initially, I thought I would snack too much and gain weight instead. But apparently, things are going the opposite way of my imagination. I barely eat proper meals now. Snacks and junk food are filling in as main courses rather. Unhealthy. But frankly speaking, I haven't been feeling like eating for the past few days. I still do eat for the sake of eating. Thus, a few mouthfuls of food per meal turns me off easily nowadays.

Oh well, shall start to sit down and think with a clear mind for now since I can. Hope that I can see the light fast enough...