And this day, 27 July 2010, I was still panicking about how to hit MM initially, because I was left with 2000 PV to clear. Thus, I wanted to approach my neighbour for help.

However, whilst I was in school, Mr Adrian called me and wanted to meet me in Pasir Ris before my appointment (I wanted to surprise visit my neighbour again). When I meet Mr Adrian in Pasir Ris, he rode me back to Tampines, not to visit my neighbour, but Quan Feng (my supposedly downline)

Thus, it was another appointment, another lesson - converting recruitment to personal sales. Everytime with him is always a new lesson learnt for the day...Yepps, and Mr Adrian didn't fail me again, he did it. He closed 2 Singles and 1 O3 with Quan Feng's mum.

That is how I became a Marketing Manager...

After the appointment, as we were walking, he asked me, "Eh, Eileen, MM already eh. How you feeling?"

I kept quiet, and gave a small forced smile....

Honestly speaking, sometimes I really hoped that Mr Adrian will failed me. Even if is once, is alright too. I felt that I owed him too much. There he is fighting so hard for us, here I am not putting in my best effort. All I was thinking was to run away from reality.

Again, this time. If not for Mr Adrian, I would not become a Marketing Manager. It wasn't even my fight, not even my utmost effort. Seriously, I owe all this to him...

Subsequently, many PP people asked me the same question, "Miss Eileen, MM already, how you feel?"

Logically speaking, I should have gave a wide smile and answered, "Yes, I'm finally an MM!" or maybe something like, "Yea, finally MM already!" But no, this is not a glory victory. I wasn't happy that I became a MM like that. This was suppose to be meant for Mr Adrian, not me. I don't deserve this.

All I could do, is smile awkwardly and forcefully, not knowing what to answer...

Sometimes, I do think, I rather Mr Adrian and Ms Sherry fail me at times, or perhaps hurt me or make me go through some rough patches. I really owe them too much, and I doubt that I can return them enough.

Really Thank You to you two, my dearest Mr Adrian and Ms Sherry.

The chalet was at Changi (Fairypoint), exactly same place as CMM's chalet..LOL

I cabbed there with Ms Sherry, Sheila, Charles, Sufian and his downline. Thankfully that it was the same place as CMM Chalet, cause I instructed the taxi driver according to my vague impression of my way. Meanwhile, Sufian's side lost their way in the midst of their journey. And, in the end, we reached there at 9pm and missed half of the product presentation of O3.

After that, was meet-up, talked amongst K9 and also amongst Mr Adrian's BM Group. Made a handful of new friends, er yea..but haven't been catching up on them ever since. But well, there's always chances. We played Uno Stacko too! Thrilling game, totally nerve-wrecking.

That was followed by supper (specially cooked by Mr Dewy and Mr Eric and a few other leaders whom I'm not sure who else) and an awesome game known as Vroom I think.

And the game goes like this:

Yepps, we played that like from 12 am to i think 3am or 4am? Super fun, got flour all over my face and even shorts. But that's my first time playing with so many mentors, including Mr Dewey even. Everyone really played hard for the game. Awesome tons of fun!

After that, supposed to receive planning from Mr Adrian. While one by one of the group did planning with Mr Adrian, the rest of us took some chairs and sit on the grassland to enjoy the seaview from the chalet. In the end, I fell asleep on the chair till morning...

Ton over for a night, took several pictures, had a wholesome of fun.

Morning time!!

Had MacDonald breakfast with Mr Adrian's group in Tampines. Another period of quality time spent together =D After that, went home to wash up before going for lecture. Yepps, it was a Wednesday - Lecture Day at 11am. However, when I reached home, I was so tired that I fell asleep till like 1030am? And, super late for lecture. Thus, I made a decision. Self-declare off day! LOL

But I continued doing my projects that were on hand. After that, I went back to the chalet and continued with my Public Speaking slides. How sad it is to bring my work to chalets... :(

Next, I got distracted, because a group of them were playing this mind game which I cant exactly remember the name of the game. Not my kinda game though, cause it is mind and psychological games, super tiring for me. That day, I get to see Mr Charles for myself. He is another scary guy, he read people so well! Just a glance, and he can tell what the person is thinking, and what are his/her personalities I think. (well, that was what I read and feel from his eyes). Mysterious, but incredible.

After games, all of us have a meet up done by Mr Charles and BBQ together!

Finally, it was already like 10 plus at night again...How time flies. Well, decided to go home together with Sheila while the other managers have another meet up then.

However, on our way home, I was bitten by a centipede. Yes, a centipede. It was super duper painful the first night! I couldnt even sleep thanks to the pain. It is like, 2 needles stabbed in, and acid burnt that kind of pain!

I was limping even when walking to the nearest bus stop the very next instant I was bitten. That's how fast and intense the effect came. Knowing nuts about wildlife and survival situations, we called our dearest mentor - Mr Adrian to asked about it.

Guess what, his question to me was "On a scale of 1-10, how would you rate the pain? Given that 1 is the least and 10 is the most." Oh my tian, I can even hear the whole group of managers laughing out loud..So embarrassing..

Well, he suggested to find a nearest clinic, and sweet Sheila accompanied me. She even paid for the cab fare, and medical bill first cause I am like almost bankrupt. Thankfully she was there, if not I won't know what to do.

The pain was so bad that I didn't sleep for the night at all. Therefore, MC for the very next day, since leg was swollen and I couldn't even walk properly...

First, it is the never-ending projects. They just kept piling up. Well, if I didn't have to work, things might have been much better for me. But, it is impossible for me not to work, cause I desperately needed money. It is seriously tough to manage both at the same time, is extremely draining, be it physically or mentally.

Secondly, it is VE. Yes, another mention about VE again. But oh well, is my time management problem actually. I am supposed to be promoted long ago. But i keep getting stuck at my position. Last time was SA, now is SE...When will I ever get to earn my passive income and car??? :(

More downlines are coming in and they are climbing much faster than me. The feeling sure is awful..SUPER AWFUL.. Really feel like crying and giving up. But I know I can't. I want my car, I want to prove to my family that MLM is a do-able thing.

Thirdly, this is the aggravating factor. My paternal grandma has shifted in my house. Gotta share a room with my sis again. And, that means, have to allocate more time for my family. Be prepared anytime for another family political fight. Gotta change my lifestyle habits to complement people in the house too...

I AM SERIOUSLY VERY STRESSED!! THE NEGATIVITY IS TOTALLY TOO MUCH FOR ME!!

It is not supposed to be finally since time is passing real fast when one enters Poly. Perhaps I have lost interest in studies for now, and I am daunted by projects because it is severely interfering my time spent to build my career. Once again, my career and academics is thrown off balance...

Year 2 is a total hell of me. I didn't like the modules at all. I really think that I chose the wrong course and wrong electives. Maybe is the people, really miss the times spent together with Yi Ting, Monica and Ting Ke. Unlike now, everything seem to be only sadness and negativity. Would things be better if I chose Chinese Newswriting as my elective? Or even will my entire Poly life be changed if I chose a Diploma in Business?

So far, I can only say, I am really enjoying myself in VE. There is so much to be learnt there. Life lessons. Sometimes, yea there are stress here and there, like working real hard for sales. There are times whereby I felt like breaking down and crying. But is the people there. See, the people make so much difference. They each have their past, and I really respect them for their determination and how they come this far in VE. Seriously, everyone of them have like countless of scars behind their backs. Nevertheless, they refuse to admit defeat. They chose to continue and move on, be it in life or in career. Frankly speaking, they are my role models to follow.

May July pass quickly so that my sem 2.1 is over and done with!! I don't want to drag this year. I want August to come fast so that I can focus more time in VE!!! But still, I pray that I can successfully clear all my modules this year. Failing the audio pro skills test made me lose confidence and become a pessimist completely.