He is finally sick, after all the long fight that he has put up with for the past...one year ?( as much as I know) cause i didnt know the past..All i know is that he has been putting up strong ever since 2010 started.

After all the intense fights that come one after another, he persevered, refusing to admit defeat. No matter how tough how pessimistic things could have been, he hid them within himself, not wanting the others to know. As much as his eyes were tired and lonely, he said nothing. All he did was only to give himself to the max, in fact over his limits to his team mates. He left nothing for himself.

Nevertheless, Im thankful that he is sick actually, cause it is only this time, he can have some time for himself, really... He thought too much for others, and hid all the negativity and fears too well beneath himself...It's really time to rest and re-charge. May you get well soon...

Time still goes by even as i am blogging, lots of revelations dawned upon me... A lot of things that it is only at this time, i suddenly realised, i neglected too many precious moments, many precious memories, people, things and places..Lots of things i wanted to do before the year ends but i no longer have the power, the strength and courage to fulfill them all. There are a lot of things I've yet to do, lots of appreciation yet to thanks, lots of apologies yet to owned up for my mistakes, and the year is coming to an end.

What's worse is that instead of facing them all in the remaining few days that I have for the year, I chose to escape. I have a strong urge to cast everything aside and leave the mess alone. What cowardice I am. Indeed, an act of an incapable leader, only to show myself that even under such strong training and guidance i've yet to improve. Only to realise that I am still the same old me, no wonders if they are disappointed in me...

Now, really, it is already the 27 dec of 2010, 4 more days to go...What else can I do? In fact, what should I do? Is there even a chance for me to end everything gloriously? Or i should do nothing and wait for things to happen?