"To be or not to be, that's a question" has never once been forgotten at all.

Kinda lost at what I should do for the upcoming times, which is then the best solution, what is it that i really want; I am totally clueless for once.

Well, at the chalet, was talking to a couple of my colleagues, helped with the bbq-ing of food and also some basic clearing up? Hahax, yea, was trying very hard to keep myself preoccupied and avoiding some people....

At night, after all the bbq-ing, was asked to sit in the drinking session, which terrified me ttm.. It was freaking Vodka and Martel with mixer...In the end, became i was part of the drinking game somemore.

Played saboteur, yea some wins and losses, by the time i was at my 3rd cup of Martel with Ginger Eel, I'm already starting to feel damn dizzy. Stopped the game and watched them played, they played heart attack too...Man that was another crazy one. Lots of dramatic things happened then which was super funny...

After that, by the time they finished the game, I was slowly back to my normal mode. While the others were sleeping, I went out for a stroll and thought through some stuff, and the only conclusion that I can come up with was : to finish up with my school projects as their deadlines are pressing, then really reconsider and reset my goals on what I really want, and then, what I need to do..Honestly speaking, I'm not sure if I can pull through the 3rd time and 'revive' over there. In fact, I wasnt even sure if it was a right choice to hang in there for so long in the first place. All the feelings I had was that it was a wrong choice from the start, but just that Im in a denial mode to admit I chose wrongly.

Oh well, to be or not to be; for once i cant even assure myself what future I wanna give for myself, nor what to do..